COVID-19 has been cruel to Michelle Smith.

Smith, a gym owner in Colorado Springs, Colorado, got sick in early November. “I’ve never felt so ill,” she said. “It was pretty horrific.”

The 38-year-old mother of two went from being a model of physical fitness—she was in training for a bodybuilding competition—to someone who needs to take a nap to recover from the strain of making a cup of tea.

She wants to talk about her ongoing complications, which include joint pain and heart issues that keep her from working out.

But she hesitates.

She feels humbled, confused and an “insane